serendipti's Diaryland Diary

10:16 p.m. - Thursday, Aug. 04, 2005

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healthy healthy healthy

I so so so badly need to go to sleep. I am buzzing with life right now. I had this awesome day, and the reason for it was that I had been sick and fighting something awful for the better part of the past week, and I finally got over it and this was my first 100% rested healthy day in like a week, and gosh, it feels amazing to feel health....the length and breadth of what it means to have your health, the energy it infuses into each moment....it is like going from the city to the mountains and inhaling the fresh crisp air (sans altitude sickness)...anyway, it is a good feeling, but my butt needs to get to bed or else I will feel like crapola manana. But I feel like I am on this chemical high right now, and I don't know how to wind down.
I got Amy sick. She had to take her first day off in the history of her clinical career thus far. i.e. for the first time in a year and some. And then she had to take her first ever second day off as well. She has been mortified. She is really not one to have to deal with health issues, so she greets limitations with not a small degree of fury and frustration. Not unlike me, back in the day. i have just learned now that fighting yourself to force your body to feel better does not work. I missed my Sunday call cuz I felt like ass, and I called in sick and the resident didn;t even believe me. it was awesome. He was like, well, enjoy the day for both of us....as if I was some hungover loser who was calling in Sunday morning to lie my way out of call and was going to proceed to spend the day at the beach. I have not had the energy to sit him down and tell him how wack he was. But now that I feel healthy.....
I mean, if you think about it, if you are not even going to believe a colleague when they tell you they are sick, how the hell are you going to believe your patients. the guy is this ER resident who is rotating with us.....one of this white, ex-jock types who have since got soft in the belly but still treat the world like it is one big frat party....anyway, he is really not that bad, I am making him sound worse only because I was already sick, and he made me feel worse....
And then I took Monday off as well, cuz I still felt exhausted and a bit low grade fevery. And I am so glad for that decision, because I feel like so new and happy and refreshed now.
YAAAY good health.
I have so much to tell you. It has been a rough week, but I will go into it when I am on call tomorrow. It is a Friday night Surgery call on a hot summer night in Chicago. I don't know, but I have a feeling it is going to be crazy. just a feeling.
I will keep you posted.
By posting.
heh.

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